Shout out to my fans in Massachusetts. :P

MOON

Death (Tarot)

Reading articles and essays is saving my sanity.

"We have already established that non-Jews are considered satanic in the Talmud and therefore interaction is only condoned in order to gain something that will benefit Jews and thereby the collective Jewish destiny. (The” end justifies the means” so much a part of Zio-Conservative ideals is perfectly at home in the Talmud). Non-Jews are more akin to animals since they have no souls; they are artificial creatures who can only have the Divine breathed into them by the chosen. Since God is the ultimate creator of life and God in the Talmud is synonymous with Rabbinical magic and the Jewish soul, then the only hope for gentiles is to accept the representatives of the  coming New Order of Jewish Utopia as their lords and masters. But even then, there seems little hope for the non-Jew as the golem/goyim remains a lifeless and unthinking as a zombie, despite vain attempts to educate and imbue him/her with Jewish law. Such is the irrevocable fundamentalism hewn into the rock of the Talmud and Hassidic consciousness."

'M.K. Styllinski' has been blowing my mind since 4AM.

"The Tantric aspect of Kabbalistic magick includes the act of Maithuna meaning “sexual union” and is one of four other techniques: matsya, mamsa, madya and mudra. The Christian tendency to scriptural puritanism to which Hoffman ascribes, means that this is automatically “sinful”. However, prudishness apart, the Tantra as an esoteric practice with the correct teacher may offer constructive outcomes. The tantric context of spiritual transformation is hardly going to be a realistic outcome cast adrift in the ocean of Talmudic authoritarianism. Perhaps this is the problem with a pic ‘n mix combination of esoteric doctrines from Asia, India and the Middle East: absorbing other cultures’ paths to spiritual transformation with its emphasis on physical union which may or not be valid in their cultural context, means that all those intrinsic distortions are brought with it, as are the more positive attributes which are inevitably lost in translation – sometimes quite literally – and through adaptation, are inverted to something quite different. The result is a hybrid form of ascension grafted onto an authoritarian instruction manual that elevates race supremacy, patriarchical values and physical and sexual abuse as part of the underlying qualities required for doctrinal obedience. "

Who is this author? He/she/it/they are blowing my f-ing mind. I can't get enough. 

https://infrakshun.wordpress.com/2015/04/15/occult-zionism-iii-magica-sexualis/

Sue.Me.

My enemies

Fear. Pain. Anger. And a growing sense of inadequacy.

"COMPLETE ME!"

Says the Triptych.

But I've just emerged from a spiritual daze and I'm relearning the whole creativity process. Never ever let anyone put you down. It dries up the well of love within you and everything wither. I will not have my enemies quell my eternal spring. Especially when those enemies would kill to have a drop of my talent.

I'm ready to believe in myself.
I CAN, YES I CAN. I WILL.

I AM.

Thought #1

It's like turning a light bulb hovering slightly atop your cranium, like a rusted gear filled with small rocks and dry dusty air, creativity is the spark that's always in sight but always ahead, out of one's reach.

Like squeezing water out of a rock, I once said, but apparently I've grown too emotional and I need an outlet of sorts. I need to learn how to speak again. How to properly articulate my rage. Using as much eloquence as I possibly can to maintain charisma. Boo. Hoo. I don't feel like I could blog like the 16 years old I once was.

Or the angst-ridden 13 years old I once was.