Mother's Day Reflections!

Just when I think I can not bare up one more trial...my son always seems to be by my side...I have been struggling with getting my hypothyroidism under control and it hasn't been easy...so the moments I find myself truly down...I am always reminded of the sincere love each of my children have for me...today I fell off a ladder, while picking peaches...as I heard Art & Rohnin approaching... I also heard this fear in Rohnin's voice as he was calling out "mama" I was obviously lying on the ground hurt...but I could tell he was scared as to if I was alright, his voice broke like he was about to cry, he was so worried. As I began to pick myself up and my pride... I began to feel the pain of my own insecurities set in of embarrassment and self doubt as to why and what had caused the fall...on the commute ride home it was just Addy and I and I began to cry...Addy noticed and the compassion, love, and genuine concern I felt from her, and All my children today, as well as other days, when I am down or hurt or hurting inside... leaves me in awe...Rohnin always seems to be in tuned with this for as I lay in bed pondering after this... he chose to lay next to me trying to comfort me, then later Art tells me that Addy was such a big help and that her prayer was so genuinely sincere... Even Abram came in and said I'm sorry you fell mama...I think as parents we often question if what we are teaching our children is influencing them for the good or the bad...I have been trying to go to the temple once a week now for the last month and the cares of this world truly become obsolete as i see what it is that is truly important in our Heavenly fathers eyes, and that is My Family not that it ever wasn't but the world tries to obscure that in so many different complex ways)...My children have such incredible LOVE for me, Me...with my many concerns and doubts...Me with my constant lectures, yelling, and tears...Me who is so far from perfect...they do not see behind my curtain of pain and self doubt... they see the woman right in front of them...that gives them love and food, protection and caring arms that wrap them up, when they are hurt, or feeling down...They remind me constantly that I am not so bad...It truly is simply amazing to me how much my children LOVE me for just being me...I had a dear friend in my last ward remind me that I am right where I need to be, that there is NO grater calling than in my home serving my children...he at the time had just began the adoption process with his wife my dearest friend...who could not have children of her own...as a mother and wife I get so caught up in the day to day things that I forget to take a step back and cherish these little moments with my incredible children...I am Blessed because my children see greatness & potential in me, even when I do not...I am blessed because of their fearless love they have for me...the beautiful compliments that come from each one of my children often goes unnoticed...but as I sit hear writing with tears rolling... I am astonished... they know my needs better than I know them...lol...I know my children's weaknesses and strengths, as they know mine...They are the reason I get up, the reason I push myself to do better, to be more Christ like! Each one of my children have gotten to a point at about age 4 when they will say "mama...mama" like they are about to say something important, and then say "Mama I Love You" That Is the important thing they needed to tell me...it is that beautiful line that reminds me that my Heavenly Father blessed me way beyond my own comprehension when I was gifted with each one of my children...I am still learning and will always be learning how to rise above and be the best mother and wife I can be...but thankfully I can call upon my saviors grace when I fall short...when I error and go to apologize my children have already forgiven me and tell me they love me...this...this is why we must become like little children...because they ARE the Perfect example of LOVE, FORGIVENESS, and JOY, at its finest...Just as our Savior is! I am truly grateful for this insight...this knowledge...I am blessed because I was gifted 3...THREE beautiful...smart...amazing..talented...energetic...perfect children! I LOVE being a mother...I LOVE it!!

June & July Happenings of 2014, wow... a bit behind maybe, But life has thrown a few to many curve balls!!!

SO its been a while...but I would like to try to post some of our past adventures for my journalism purposes, since the blogging world is well on a down, and I no longer live far from home...this is gonna be for those who still wish to know my families happening....I post a few current photo's on instagram...but not many other places, so this blog may turn private depending on if I decide there is too much unwanted traffic from those I do not know or care to know! SO if you still check in let me know, I have more important things to do but will try and play catch up from my past when I can! Life is different...far different than what I was planning...some good... some bad...but because this is going to be more private well you may get the bad with the good! SO please leave me a post if you wish to continue to read my blog! Otherwise I am going private in the next month or so!

M-O-V-I-N-G June & Goodbyes!

 SO I had the privilege of being the primary secretary for a short season with these lovely ladies!! Marji was an amazing President and Tara and Jesica have such amazing talents!! They were the absolute Best to work with in Primary!

Saying goodbye to All our church friends was bitter sweet...

Good thing he didn't remember most of this!! He finally had his arm fixed right...right before we moved back home to AZ! Kinda tricky BUT it ALL worked out for the better!

Loved Mrs. Cates! Addy's 1st grade teacher

Loved Mrs. Dougherty! Addy's Kindergarten teacher!

It was a VERY VERY VeRy long drive to ARIZONA...thankfully my mom joined us on this adventure back!!

Making a pit stop in Payson, at my parents cabin... we ALL needed a break from driving!

Friendly visitors are always close by in Payson!

Ahhh....blessed irrigation! the boys got their first dose of playing in irrigation!   They LOVED it!!

We could NOT get enough of Trinity! Love having cousins close by!!

First Sunday back....Love my beautiful kiddos!

Oh course we found Ryan our favorite swim teacher in getting the boys ready for swimming!!

Addy got to meet the neighborhood girls around us!!

Lots of new adventures and sleeping arrangments!

Lots of cousin time!

Rohnin got to go to his first EVER ALL BOY birthday party!!

Also at a neighbors house right down from ours!!

Finding a long term storage for ALL our worldly possessions... Bitter sweet...

May Happenings and Gosh...Catching up is not going as planned....

 So Back in May Addy's 1st Grade class/division er able to go to Ron Colman's Crystal Mine! I did no get to do very many field trips with Addy so this was so much fun!!

 She was having so much fun! These were her buddies, Lexi and Kennedy!

 These were some of the bigger crystals from the mine!

 This is Kate from our ward! She shares the same birthday as Addy!

 Every time I would try to find Addy she was in a different location, she really did have a blast!

 Her Awesome teacher, Mrs. Cates!

 I walked in one night and this was such a great photo op!! Love this one!!!

 For the Teachers we were leaving behind us, I had made them each a deco mesh wreath for Christmas and then this multifunctional chalk board - sign for their classrooms!! I LOVED how they turned out!!

 Mrs. Nickie & Mrs. Sarah were not returning next year...They were so wonderful to my kiddos!!

 As I was driving home I noticed how LOW the clouds were around me and then I hear the sirens go off warning of possible tornado's....Thankfully they did not touch down but this was one last reminder of WHY I was really ready to move back home!! ALTHOUGH...

 I do miss so many things about our very first home and AR family & friends...

 My kids have said how much they miss soccer...and our home back there...

 This was one of Rohnin's team mates!

 This was Addy's last and final game in AR...bitter sweet...

 Rohnin LOVES the dirt...I think he will inherit his daddy's love of planting!!

 Addy's team mates!!

 We visited Daddy at work so that he could perform a nerve conduction test to see what was going on with my carpel tunnel junk... Um I do not think I am a big fan of that test!

 We stopped at our favorite park one last time!! The kids had a blast at Mills park!

 Abram just adores his big brother and does just about everything Rohnin does!

 LOVE his faces!!

 My speed racer!!

 I was at a different part of the the park when I captured this 'gem'!

 I love it when they play nice together!!

 Rohnin was not feeling well and Abram was SOOO worried he must have kissed his brother 10+ times... I think he was hoping it would help him get better...it was so sweet, other time I would look over and he was just laying by him! I just love my little guys!!

 Brotherly LoVe!!!

This is one of those truly precious...bitter sweet moments...look at this new mama's face...shear happiness in those gorgeous eyes...Kara has since added a handsome little mister to their growing clan!! I could not be happier for her and their beautiful growing family!!! I do miss her dearly though...