But.....
Why do I feel so......lonely?
It's so STUPID! I've got beautiful babies crawling in opposite directions, making me laugh hysterically all day long. I've got two snuggly cats, two very sweet dogs and a very good man that I'm married to. Why do I feel so ALONE?
Maybe I am just missing my job and seeing the Coug every day....? Plus, remember my former trainer/gf The Wee General? Well, TWG and her hub are divorced now, so she's never around anymore (she has a married Scandinavian bf - a story for another day).
I know part of my feeling all discombobulated is I never have time to write naughty stories or email friends anymore.
The bottom line is, I am a very social creature stuck inside a baby bubble.
Here's where I really confuse myself.
I love the baby bubble.
I just can't quite figure out how to get some balance in my life.
I feel like I am losing some of myself, and when that feeling pops in to my mind, I feel so GUILTY! I would die for my babies, but I want to be the social, creative, sexual maniac I used to be TOO.
Is it wrong to want it all? And if you answer that with a "no", how the heck do you get it?
Is it wrong to want it all? And if you answer that with a "no", how the heck do you get it?
