Ashley's note about life at this point 2/11/08

Today marks a big day for me. I am officially in my 3rd trimester! I can't believe this time has gone so fast, I will have a baby in my arms in less than 12 weeks, I will be full term in 8-9. I thought I would share a story about a dream I had before I found out it was a girl.

In my dream I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl with amazing blue eyes and light brown hair. Due to complications I had to have a C-section and this lady decided to take it upon herself to help me take care of my baby. This lady kept taking her though! Like, ALL THE TIME! Because I was still healing I couldn't drive or do much of anything; I was so miserable! All I wanted was my baby girl, and this lady kept taking her! I remember telling Spencer (In my dream) that all I wanted was our baby girl in my arms, I hadn't even held her once. I knew the lady was just just trying to help, but people were starting to think MY BABY was hers! I was so mad! Finally, our baby was with us, and at this point in the dream she was big enough to sit up... my dream skipped ahead a few months... I even remember she was sitting on my parents old brown couch. People kept coming over and telling me what and amazing smile she had and how cute she was. They'd ask me what her name was and I'd tell them, Alice Marie, never up to that point had I thought of that name, but that was it. Mind you, we didn't even know what it was at this point!

One of the most vivid points was when everyone was telling me how beautiful she was, I look at her and she was just smiling at me. I couldn't pick her up though! I really wanted to! I won't forget the amount of love I had for her though! I imagine that feeling will only get stronger.

So that was my dream. When I was saying my prayers that night I was expressing a sincere desire to feel a connection with our baby. All these women kept on telling me about these amazing connections they felt with their babies when they were pretty early in their pregnancies... I felt like a lamo because the only big connection I felt was nausea and extreme tiredness, I mean I was excited and I still am, I would daydream about it all the time... But I wasn't showing, not everyone knew for sure that I was pregnant... I am sure people wondered why I looked bloated... But anyway... I just wanted the connection. Needless to say, I got! Be careful what you pray for, you just might get it!

25 random things about Ashley

I did it for Facebook so I am posting it here!

1. I am half Mexican.
2. Spanish was actually my first language, although I don’t speak it at all anymore… Well, I really learned Spanish and English at the same time… But I do still speak English… sort of
3. In spite of the Spanish background I took Italian in college. My abuela wasn’t too happy.
4. I can make amazing conchitas! Well, not as good as grandma’s, but better than my mom!
5. I also make amazing chicken fried steak. Spencer took a picture the first time he had it... It was that good. Lol, really I just copied my parents… Then all my friends gave me credit for an amazing dish that isn’t even my own! My parents just don’t like to spend an hour making it.
6. While pregnant I have had acid reflux for the first thirty times of my life!
7. Spencer and I have sung an opening song for FHE ever since we started it…
8. I look at pianos on KSL and craigslist all the time… But we can’t get one down to our apartment so I really just go through a big cycle of disappointment every time.
9. I am still a licensed massage therapist in Texas, but not in Utah.
10. It costs a total of $305 dollars to get my license in Utah, and $106 every two years to keep it in Texas.
11. I want my baby to come out with blue eyes, curly eyelashes, and light curly hair… I pray for this nightly.
12. I had a dream I was having a girl a month before I found out I was actually having a girl.
13. Spencer kissed me when we found out we were having a girl… right there… in the middle of the ultrasound… I quite literally almost peed my pants. Those that have been pregnant know how bad you have to pee when you go for this long awaited ultrasound, those that haven’t been… just be patient… you will see.
14. I don’t like living in Utah… if I could take the few awesome people I have met and move them AND BYU to Texas, I would.
15. I have been seriously trying to get Spencer to talk about names since I was 14 weeks… I am now 28 wks… and still no name.
16. I can’t miss any part of a movie the first time. I will rewind if I miss something, even if it is just one word.
17. Hot chocolate is my favorite drink, my coworkers got me a hot chocolate maker for my birthday and I have used it at least 50 times. My birthday was less than two months ago.
18. Spencer and I own a car, and when I say own, I mean it’s ours, and we owe nothing on it.
19. We still haven’t eaten the top of our wedding cake… not because of procrastination, but fear.
20. I have been reading Ender’s Shadow since this time last year. But I skipped to the end in the beginning, so now I having a hard time getting back to it.
21. I watch Ever After every time I am sick.
22. I have gotten sick once every two to three weeks since November when everyone decided to be walking incubuses of viral plague. Oh and I didn’t throw up at all my first trimester, but four times in my second.
23. I have still never been snowboarding or skiing. That isn’t going to change this winter!
24. Spencer’s mom was probably the most wary of us getting married so soon, but in the end she was the most excited.
25. I have never taken teasing very well; actually, it really bothers me. When I was younger I would cry about it. And I am still really sensitive to it.