I'm sitting here, back against the wall with the sun filtering through the blinds. It is quiet in my house while my sweet baby boys are sleeping oh so peacefully. There is a basket of clothes to fold and crumbs to sweep up. But, as I sit here thinking, "what should I do,".... because to be honest, I don't want to do any of the above, I thought I'd get on and say hello to all of you. That is if there's anyone still out there that pays a visit here. I have been so neglectful and will probably continue to. I get busy and stressed and the last thing I think about is this "to do." I push it way back in the back of my mind. I hope I will forget about blogging and be done, but when I check it at least once a day to see what's new with you I kind of remember. Today I'm just writing. No special pictures, no stories to tell, cause there's just to darn many to start. I'm just writing. Thinking clearly for the most part and for the first time in a few weeks. Trying to "Enjoy the Journey." Sometimes that's real hard for me. I'm often thinking what's next??? But today was a good day and I enjoyed it. Sitting in the silence helped me remember. I love my life. Have I ever told you that? I have so many things to be grateful for. Really I do.
JJ just woke up smiled at me and laid his little head back down. I sure love these boys. They make me laugh, cry, and even scream. I wish you all new them better. They are good boys. I hope to raise the best, we need more good men these days. Some days I am brave enough to say Heavenly Father I would raise you five good men if you entrusted them to me, or at least I'd try. Not today though because I still want at least one little girl. :) Anyway, we're all good over here. Johnny has to be, hands down, the best hubby in the world. He's a great man. I love him so much. I wish some of you knew him better too. He's always bettering himself. I watch him and wish I could be that good. Lately I've kind of been acting like a toddler. Reverse psychology would work great on me right now. That probably makes ____ that much sense. It's silly I know. I am extremely grateful for his example though. He keeps me in place.
I feel like I could ramble on about nothing today. I just want to. I've had lots on my mind. Like Conference, Easter, JJ's preschool, Primary, vacations, and wanting a baby. I'd like another one!
Well, little Jack-Jack and I will be packing our bags for Utah in a month, JJ and Johnny are headed to Florida to have some male bonding time I guess (with his dad and brothers). Air boats, fishing and all. I'm excited for them slash a little nervous. I just worry about my boys! I hope they enjoy themselves though. I know I will!!!
I hope to see some of you! I will be there for a whole week so let me know!
I think I've said enough today. Hopefully I will be back soon! Have a happy day!
~Ash
Johnny's ninja birthday party
