This week the boys began the 2014/2015 school year. This time of year is always so bittersweet for me, as it is a true
indicator of the quick passage of time and the reality that our boys
growing older...oh no...oh dear! Sappy post alert! At least it's
short(ish).
It was a great summer, and we were still having fun, which makes it the perfect time to start school...before bickering and boredom really start to surge. The gift of this summer really comes from this golden phase of life we are in: our oldest isn't diving headfirst into teenhood too quickly and enjoys time with family still, and our baby is no longer a real baby: no diapers, no naps, which makes activities so much easier than in the past. Plus, the older boys are pretty good at problem solving, especially the two oldest, which helps diffuse conflict, and they don't mind helping me entertain and break up conflict between the little boys. The little boys have a decent level of self-care (wiping! filling a water bottle!) and self-preservation (looking both ways before running into the street! wearing helmets without being asked!).
Also, the boys are all at a stage where their personalities, which have always been unique and interesting, are developing depth, each in their own way. I love just listening to them all talk about their
things, the things that occupy their brains. The slower pace of this stage, blessed by a little more sleep and a little less chasing, and ease of these days, after the baby worry but before the teen worry, allow me to really feel our relationships growing deeper as the days go by. It's not that I didn't enjoy the baby and toddler years; I loved them! And it's not that I'm just now starting to feel connection with the older boys, they are my best buddies. It's hard to explain if you're not in it, but there is just something about leaving the little kid years behind yet not fully being in the teen years that is
golden. And we lived in that golden glow so much this summer.
I am so proud of my boys. They make good choices, {ahem...for the most part}, and have good friendships. They are all kids who love school and learning and we are blessed to send them to fantastic schools with impressive teachers, so I'm happy to push them out of the nest to learn and experience this great life, but I do not love how the busy school year pulls us in multiple directions every single day and eats up the time our family has before Conlin boys start venturing into the world on their own. Even though all the things they are doing are for their benefit and enjoyment, I am inclined to keep us trapped in this little bubble of time, these shiny golden days of our lives, forever. But I can't.... So here we go, ready or not, into the next school year: where exciting things happen, growth occurs, changes are inevitable and oftentimes beautiful, learning is embraced, joys and heartbreak await, and I get to witness it all and hold on to all the gold that I can, in my mind and my heart for that someday when my teenagers are driving me bonkers, or beyond that, when I will no longer be busily performing the school year juggling act, and I will miss these days so.
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| Luke--2nd Grade with Mme. Brown |
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| Josh--4th Grade with Mme. Lepillez |
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| Ben--Sixth Grade; first day of MIDDLE SCHOOL! |
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| Zac--8th Grade; last year of middle school. Wha?! |
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| And just because the walking away breaks my heart, so it must break yours too, here's Ben walking to his first day of middle school with Ryan, Micah and Josiah, our neighbors. |