"He is"

My heart is swollen with love, sadness, pain and forever gratitude for my wonderful Savior.

This past month has been a bit draining on our hearts.

I have gone back and forth on whether or not to share my experience so publicly,

 but looking back throughout my entire life

writing has been very therapeutic for me and so I type on....

After returning home from all our fun adventures we were full of anticipation to hear the

sweet heartbeat of our second little one.

We knew I couldn't have been more than 10 weeks along, but since we had been on vacation for 7 weeks, we hadn't been to any doctors.

I had been very sick while in CT (which is completely normal-I was sick with Bryson for 26 weeks)

 but kept pretty occupied with all of our activities and pushed forward.

We were so excited!!

All our immediate family knew, but we decided to hold off in telling our close friends until we had gone to the doctor.

When we got to the doctors office, my nerves became almost unbearable.

 I remember saying to myself  "why am I so nervous, I have done this part before," but something

 just didn't feel right

(in fact I had been worried for a few days, because something just didn't feel right).

When my name was called and they got me all set up, I felt better,

a sense of calmness and peace came over me.

When the ultra sound tech looked at the screen blankly for a few seconds (felt like a few minutes),

 I began to feel a little more uneasy.

When she looked up at me and Ben with sadness in her eyes,

 I knew something was wrong.

When she began to say "I'm sorry...I can't find a heartbeat,"

 a rush of grieve and pain covered my entire body like a cold, unwanted blanket.

 I began to shake.

I began to cry.

At that moment I looked at Ben and saw tears running down his face.

There was an empty feeling, something I had never felt before.

I took a breath.

After the nurse left, Ben and I embraced one another.

 In that moment I felt peace.

 I felt love and comfort.

Although that experience was terribly unwanted, like always, it's at my lowest moments in life when I feel my Savior the closest.

He is there.

He knows me.

He knows my pain,

 and through Him I can find peace.

This is an incredibly beautiful song by Hilary Weeks "He Is," that really portrays my own thoughts into lyrics. 

I am forever grateful for my Savior,

His love and comfort is endless.

I am forever grateful for my dear husband, for his continual support and countless hugs,

 my love for him is eternal.

I am forever grateful for my sweet little B,

who without even knowing picked me up out of darkness and showed me the light,

 he will always be my ray of sunshine.

I am forever grateful to my dear family and friends who have truly shown selfless love.

Life is tender.

Life is rocky.

Life is filled will little miracles.

Life is about finding Christ and turning to Him always...

 "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,  its about learning how to dance in the rain."

Summer Livin: part one

This summer sure has flown by!

We have been so many places and created soo many memories that I have procrastinated writing about it, knowing it will take me several hours (and who that has a ONE yr old has several hours to do anything :) But I figure...now or never!

We finished up the semester in the end of July and started off for our 7 week adventure

 (Ben and I have been saving up for over a year to take off, from work, the 7 week break between semesters and visit both are families for three weeks each!)

First stop, visiting

James Byron Hessing (aka JB)

Our little nephew was born on July 16th and is such a little love!

We had such a wonderful time visiting this sweet little boy and his wonderful parents (Trav and Nat). Congratulations you guys on such a beautiful blessing!!!

We played for a few days in Boise...


Riding in Papa's truck :)



And then little B got into a fight with some stickers...
and well I think the stickers may have won...

....and then headed back east to beautiful New England!
 We seriously had such a BlAsT!!

Instead of writing a veryyyy long explination of our Connecticut adventure, I will let most the pictures do the talking- that is the ones we still have :(

 Chilling on Grandma's kitchen table

 Riding down to New Jersey!!

Have you seen the show on TLC, Cake Boss?? We headed down to NJ for a day full of yummy eating- lunch at a delicious little Italy resturant, AmAzInG cupcakes, canolli's, pastries and, of course CAKE and delicious NYC pizza!

 Playing 2 hours of Pictionary while waiting in line to get into Carlo's bakery! It was raining, but they had us standing under coverings so we were HapPy!

  Inside the woNdeRfuL BaKerY :)

All our packeged-up goodies :)

Quick trip to the beach with Mar...

 We had fun walking out in the low tide ocean and being hussled out of the water by all the screaming life guards running up and down the shoreline.

Of course, we thought there was a shark sighting,

 but there wasn't :(

kind of disappointing...

but don't worry, the missing child they evacuated the water for was found and returned safely to his family.

Then we SHipPed off to BOsTon for an all American classic-

a good ole bratwurst (aka- fancy hotdog :) with grilled onions on Yonkers Way,

 and a good ole night of baseball at historic Fenway Park!

 

Nater had a fun-filled, exhausting day that left him out cold on the ride home, and of course us three sister couldn't just let him sleep, we had to mess with him a little ;)

August 2, 2011

Welcome baby Eberly #2:

♥Bella Eberly♥

In the car heading to the hospital to meet sweet little Bella!





Proud Grandparent's



Next stop....

all our favorite beaches in New England.

We took a few days and went beach hopping up the coast!

We crossed over some beautifully large bridges to get into
 Rhode Island.

The views were A-M-aMzing!!

I just love the rustic, full of sail boats, light houses and massive mansions, New England shore!! 



Those are sailboats out in the distance :)



 We walked along a stone walk way that over looked the vast ocean.

It was so magnificent to bask in this beautiful world our Heavenly Father has created for us.



 I don't know what it is about the ocean
(maybe it's the forever horizon)
but everytime I get by this incredible body of water I always ponder
 the magnitude and astounding glory of God,
His creation,
 His marvolous work,
and how somehow I am (we all are) a piece in all of this beauty....it truly "passes all my understanding"...

This next little music video is a favorite of mine.
 This song has inspired me since I was in Young Women's and I hope it touches you today.

Heavenly Father truly is GlORiEs.
He is the almighty,
 the omnipotent,
the eternal father...
and this world is only a piece of His forever greatness :)

EnJoy!! 



One of our last stops before leaving the islands
 was to visit the incredible mansions on Newport, our favorite was the Breaker's.
It is a house (mansion) that was built 1893-1895 and still stands today
as a National Historic Landmark. Kinda cool ;) 



 

 

We had some fun taking playful pictures at a nearby beach!

Then we were on our way home, but not without first stopping and having a fabulous seafood dinner at the Crow's Nest.

Their clamchowder was AweSoMe!!

Thanks Mom & Dad for such a  great beach getaway!!! 

 

    To top off the weekend,

  we ended Sunday with a little belated Graduation bash for Mary!

Yeaaaa for graduating!!!! and for some really good celebratory cake ;)

A month full of Birthday's (July) and two months behind!!!!

This post is wayyy past due: it should really be dated
 July 16, 2011
 (I started it on July 16th, and am now just getting around to posting it, so needless to say we have been ALOT busy and I am really, really behind, but for today let's just roll with it!)

The last few weeks have been filled with lots of crazy fun, birthday celebrations, long holiday weekends, loads of soaking up the sun and cherished memories!

For starters, our cousin Lauren got to join us for a world-win of fun up at the Hessings cabin!

and man did we LIVE-IT-UP!!!

We wake boarded, surfed, tubed, fished (Lauren even ATE the fish she caught),
played games, enjoyed the amazing sunshine,
played in the sand,
 splashed in the water (Bryson's first time in the Lake),
 ate tons of scrumptious food,
watched beautiful fireworks on the 4th of July-
Happy Birthday America, 
went for walks, played badminton and volleyball,
 had fires, roasted marshmallows,
 went on dirt bike/ four wheeling rides,

played alot of 7 little words (my cuz and I got totally hooked) AND went white water rafting over some pee-your-pants kind of rapids (seriously though, they were sooo scary, but soooo fun)!!!

It was a BLAST and we sure hope to see Lauren again soon!
(hopefully some pictures to come)

 After the crazy-cabin adventure, we headed back to Rexburg, but not without visiting sweet little Bailee first :)

 She was born on July 5th, perfect timing for us to visit her and her wonderful family before  heading back to school!!
Happy Birthday Sweet baby girl!

Next, came Bryson's big day!

He turned ONE on July 15th :)

 We opened presents, played with his new toys, read books, had friends over, ate some yummy BBQ, sang happy birthday, had some delicious birthday cake & ice cream and enjoyed a lot of laughs and entertaining shimmies (of course, courtesy of Bryson)!

Love you sooooo very much little man!

 Opening some presents

Playing with his Godparents- Hunter & Kana

Eating some birthday cake, very delicately :)

All messied-up for mommy ;)

 Chilling with Daddy-o

My BiG bOy!!

I couldn't resist expressing my forever love for you, so here goes:

   Dear Bryson,

You are officially ONE!!

 I can't believe it!

It feels like just yesterday I was holding your tender little body in my arms when you were just one hour old :)

Ohh how that moment will be forever engraved on my heart!

You are my dream come true :)

Thank you for all that you have taught me,

 and for your beautiful sweet spirit that always brightens up our home!

You are just my perfect ray of sunshine!

Happy Birthday my dearest, little lover Bryson!