Original wording (Cantonese): "你一食葯就会食到老嘅啦“ (Once you start, you will need to continue till you get old (aka: till your death))

Oh okay mom… “唔食藥而家死咗就唔使到老囉” (If I don’t get medicated, I die now and no need to get old) (didn’t actually say it, but really want to)

This culture is gonna kill me 😭

    • lIlIlIlIlIlIl
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      5 months ago

      There is so much to life beyond this. So much that this will seem insignificant, maybe even silly.

      I truly hope you make it there, and stop living for someone else

      • 「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」(old account, migrated to Piefed)@sh.itjust.worksOP
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        5 months ago

        Logically I want to live

        Emotionally I have an attachment to my mom (plus finanical dependence)

        Emotions are irrational

        Attachment is irrational

        Its a chemical

        Just like depression

        I don’t think free will exists

        If the chemicals in my brain are telling me to jump off a bridge… there’s no way for me to stop it…

        its just chemical…

        You can’t tell a computer to “just don’t fucking shut down, stay booted”, when you deleted system32, when systemfiles are corrupted…

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            5 months ago

            I know you are trying to help but i have never known such commentary to do any good towards a depressed person.

            At worst it can even make them worse because now the depression is their own fault for not exercising enough.

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              4 months ago

              While I get what you mean and the person you are replying to was very flippant about it, there are studies that show moderate exercise outdoors (going for a walk) to be as effective as chemical antidepressants.

              I am currently in a deep depression and on SSRIs and my doctor told me about those studies. Yes it’s hard to get outside, but the positive effects of sunlight + moving your body on depressed people are scientifically proven. And it can be helpful to know that going for a walk is actually useful and not a waste of time. It won’t cure a depression, but the positive effects shouldn’t be dismissed either.

          • 「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」(old account, migrated to Piefed)@sh.itjust.worksOP
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            5 months ago

            Aaaah no energy

            I like to do “chill” stuff like just slowly walking in a park… but um… the sun is already setting so maybe tomorrow (it’s now 18:52)

            Don’t wanna get abducted in the dark lol…

            Takes a lot of energy to just put on clothes and go outside… germophobia… to anxious of ourside…

            Wait wtf why do I wanna die and also germophobic…

            wtf brain.exe? So I’m afraid of dying and wanna die? The fuck?

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              5 months ago

              Sounds like you don’t want to die, you just don’t want to live the way you’re currently living. But, don’t listen to me, I don’t jack from shit.

            • Jax@sh.itjust.works
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              5 months ago

              Do you have anyone besides your mother and online friends to interact with on a regular basis? People you like to be around, I mean? Genuine question, I am not trying to be a dick.