Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Natala and 'Marie' ..

I stared at the screen for a while as i read porn star part 7 (and i know he watches over me) from Natala's blog. I was speechless.. and i was in tears as i continued reading part 8

A story of her friendship with a porn star..

....being that this story is one that is deep, messy, and emotional, this is simply the start of a story of my friendship with a porn star.

....we'd stay up, and talk, we'd fall asleep next to one another.
we were the oddest of friends.
we would walk to meals together, laughing, talking, and people would stare.
no one really understood why i was friends with her.
but really, i never understood why marie was friends with me.

porn star part 1
porn star part 2 (bathroom photo's and plato)
porn star part 3 (emergency room nights)
porn star part 4 (500 dollars)
porn star part 5 (white pill)
porn star part 6 (the e-mail)
porn star part 7 (and i know he watches over me)
part 8 (seeing jesus through a porn star)






*got the links from jason

Monday, September 19, 2005


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Sunday, September 18, 2005

.: So you would come :.

So you would come
Russel Fragar

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

Monday, September 12, 2005

disillusioned

disillusioned.
reality.
douleur..
choices.
idle.


love..?
hope..?
grace...?

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

my dinner rendezvous

3 girls..
from 3 different countries
3 different religions

A Cambodian Buddhist.
A Chinese Moslem.
A Malaysian Christian.

But all three are Chinese.

These are the people I went dinner with yesterday.I just thought it's interesting that our path may crossed eventhough we are from different countries,different cultural and different religions :)

Monday, September 05, 2005

a moment of silence..

I really do not know how to response to the Hurricane Katrina catastrophe in New Orleans.
It is heart-wrenching when i read the news today. Many were are still stranded/unsaved even after six days of the disaster.

Louisiana official haunted by drowned woman

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - A New Orleans official was overcome by emotion on national television on Sunday when describing how a woman was abandoned and eventually drowned after repeated promises she would be rescued.

"The guy who runs this building I'm in, the emergency management, who's responsible for everything. His mother was trapped in St. Bernard nursing home and every day she called him and said are you coming, son, is somebody coming," Aaron Broussard, president of Jefferson Parish, said as he burst into heavy sobbing on NBC's Meet the Press program.

"And he said 'yeah mama, somebody's coming to get ya, somebody's coming to get ya on Tuesday, somebody's coming to get ya on Wednesday, somebody's coming to get ya on Thursday, somebody's coming to get you on Friday.'

"And she drowned Friday night, she drowned Friday night. Nobody's coming to get us."

"Nobody's coming to get us, nobody's coming to get us," Broussard said through tears.

Broussard, president of the parish just south of New Orleans, did not give the woman's name.

The aftermath of Hurricane Katrina "will go down as one of the worst abandonments of Americans on American soil ever in U.S. history," he said.

Local and federal officials said they expected to find thousands of corpses still floating in flood waters or locked inside homes and buildings destroyed by the devastating storm that struck the U.S. Gulf Coast last Monday.

Broussard said the government must acknowledge the part it played in senseless deaths.

"It's not just Katrina that caused all these deaths in New Orleans," he said. "Bureaucracy has committed murder here in the greater New Orleans area, and bureaucracy has to stand trial before Congress now."

He demanded congressional hearings on what went wrong in the chaotic aftermath of the hurricane.

"They've had press conferences. I'm sick of press conferences. For God's sake, shut up and send us somebody."


Maybe we could at least spend a moment of silence or say a little prayer for the victims.

Friday, September 02, 2005

i am...

wandering...