My new lil family of four went on our very first camping trip. I forgot how much fun it is to camp and fish and be a bit primitive. I hope to keep this tradition up for us because the kids enjoyed it so much and it would be nice to have something new that's just ours to do together.
I'm going to be shutting this blog down soon and making a fresh start with a new approach to what I write about and post to go along with my new life as a single Mama...... Email me at geegryan@gmail.com if you'd like a link to the new blog.
This month I'm getting away for a few days and promising myself that I will relax, sleep in, indulge in the the small things with good friends and laugh a lot.
Also my baby boy will be 2 years old this month.... It's so crazy to me but he is a big blessing and beings me a new joy everyday.
I am a people person and have missed getting out being friendly meeting new and interesting people. Being alone in my thoughts and free time the last 8 months was starting to change me in ways I didn't like. It's good to see the old happy me in the mirror more and more often.
In June I'm planing a trip to see my big sister and I know when I'm there with her family I am free and fun and happy. I have a lot to look forward to on this new path so I'm embracing it!
I'm down 40 lbs... But I am enjoying eating again... I've even been trying new foods, sushi (yum) and baked oysters (yum) and all kinds of grilled fish (yum yum). I am finally sleeping through the night. I get up and put on makeup and get dressed and go out in a good mood... I'm enjoying music and TV and movies again. I'm coming back and I like it .......finding my fun side again.
I was just sitting here thinking about a really fun day...... girls got home from school and we decided to play beauty shop... what a fun day!
Now on to a sad confession....
As many of my blog followers have seen in past posts life for me has been extremely sad. So here's the story in a way I can finally write it...
Just after Halloween I made a discovery that shook me to my core. It was devastating, but I did what I though was right for my family and tired to pull myself together and keep moving forward.
However, when both people don't fight for their marriage it's a battle that will be lost. So I lost the battle. Kevin and I are now divorced, doing what we can to be friends for the kids. There is a whole long involved story but the end result is still the same.
Hope all my friends understand I couldn't stop fighting until I knew it was a final deal. Thanks for all your support I love you all and I am becoming stronger everyday. I'm smiling again and eating and laughing.
It is quickly approaching the big 30th birthday. I've been excited for this for a long time. I feel like in your 30's you are a woman no longer a girl. Did I know my life would change so dramatically from 29 to 30? NO!! But now I am embracing it ready to move forward as a strong confident woman. Facing these challenges alone is not easy but dang I'm getting stronger and I guess that's worth a lot. Friday April 8th 2011 I will be a 30 year old single mom of 3.... and I own it!!
HARD WORK: I have been working hard on my outer appearance. Today after a weekend of doing a dance in the dressing room after dawning a pair of size 9 jeans that fit comfortably I did my weigh in on the Wii Fit. I have been doing regular weigh ins on it since November. As I stand there waiting for the little bar to rise and tell me I'm Obese I think one day it won't go that high. IT HAPPENED! When the bar assented it stopped on NORMAL! I have now lost 37 pounds am down 3 jeans sizes and 2 top sizes! The smallest I've been since Jr. year of high school!
LOVE: As many of you know I have recently suffered a major tragedy in my personal life. I have felt lost and been in some dark places I hope to never be in again. Through all this I have been supported by amazing people who love me and wont let my confidence waver (I do fight them on it but I am trying to embrace it).
Because of their love and the love of my family I have put in this hard work and am feeling better than ever about how I look on the outside. (yes I'm still working on loving the inside)
This week is spring break. At this time of year it used to be you'd be talking to your friends and neighbors about their vacation plans, but as the news keeps saying "the economy is down" or the really scary truth "gas will be $5 a gallon by summer break" So at our house we are doing our best to put some "spring" in our steps and spend this break doing the things we love.
So far we have put our hoodies to work so we could enjoy the above 40's (below 60's) weather. In our family the best time spent is at the movie theater, so we have already seen Disney's Tangled. Witch I would highly recommend for everyone in the family. Who knew a frying pan to the head of a character would make a 21 month old giggle so hard that the other movie goers would turn and laugh in delight along with him? Dean's enjoyment of the movie made my heart jump with pure glee.
We also went to a big outdoor mall to see Mars Needs Moms not in 3D (please movie makers stop making every single family movie 3D my pack of under 8 years do not enjoy the glasses and don't notice much if any difference in their enjoyment of the move. Plus it already costs me a Ulysses Grant to take them so taking on another $2 a ticket for stupid plastic glasses that they want you to recycle after is pure BS!!) The movie was good and thanks to Disney for a few hours my girls were very worried Mars might need me! Because in their words "You are the best mom ever!" and ya know Mars needs good moms.
Soon we will finish our spring break movie outing's with Rango (Not offered in 3D thank goodness!)
Also this week having a little adjustment period to get used to this crazy daylight savings time. However the sun still up at our usual bed time is really messing with the kids listening. At least that's about all that they get upset with. I love how well my kids are getting along with quiet pretend time with Littlest Pet Shops and over hearing these great compliments they are giving each other while coloring at the table.
Now it's time for some much needed Just Dance 2 on the Wii and maybe some Wii 100 bowling.
Hope you all are having a great spring break too!
BTW who else is super excited for Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Rodrick Rules? This clip makes me laugh so hard I Wii-ed (ha ha) the first time I watched it.........Enjoy
LOVE: As many of you know I have recently suffered a major tragedy in my personal life. I have felt lost and been in some dark places I hope to never be in again. Through all this I have been supported by amazing people who love me and wont let my confidence waver (I do fight them on it but I am trying to embrace it). 
