13 Ogo 2009

ekspresi merdeka kah kita ini II


Kita kembali dari entri yang lepas...

Pagi-pagi manusia yang tumpah di Kuala Lumpur dari pelbagai pelosok daerah tetap tahu apa yang penting.

PEKERJAAN.

Soalnya,apakah hanya disitu bermula dan berakhirnya?
Jangan terkeliru kawan-kawanku. Jejak gerak harian kita sebenarnya sekarang amat bercerita dan membayangkan tentang mutu kehidupan bandar di samping mengimbas sisa ragam kehidupan desa kita.

Dari fesyen busana mereka yang rata-ratanya berjenama, dari ragam rambutnya yang terkacau santai atau yang tegak berselerak; dari cara duduknya lelap tersengguk atau cergas celek menatap Forbes atau Mastika; dari beg sandang kukuh yang digemuki laptop, MEREKA ADALAH BAYANGAN RAKYAT CEMAS MENYAIGI WAKTU.

Memang selalunya mereka kelihatan bahagia, tidak mustahil mereka pintar menyembunyikan derita.

Di tengah-tengah ragam dan gelagat manusia kota beginilah selalunya kita terangsang bertanya BAGAIMANA DENGAN DUNIA KEHIDUPAN SENI MEREKA SELEPAS BEKERJA? Apakah mereka yang tampak sibuk ini sedar atau sempat menikmati khazanah budaya?

Apakah kesibukan tuntutan harian membatasi dan mengalpakan kita akan kualiti hidup berlandaskan ilmu dan seni?

Sekilas pandang masyarakat Melayu sering dirunguti kurang kesedaran membaca dn penghayatan seninya. Barangkali kita memang tahu atau sedar akan inti-inti penting ucapan mantan Perdana Menteri tentang pelbagai masalah negara, tapi percayalah kita adalah manusia yang cepat dan mudah gugup apabila ditanya tentang sesuatu di luar jendela wilayah rutin kita.

Yang muda mungkin terbiasa benar dengan Dayang Nurfaizah, Hrithik Roshan atau Blue. Tapi tidak mustahil, kita kebanyakan bakal segan jika ditanya seputar skandal korporat Kenneth L. Lay, Pengerusi Enron dan akhir sekali jangan terluka jika ramai didapati kurang tahu tentang kegiatan Majlis Teater Kebangsaan Malaysia atau tidak mengikuti pembukaan minda umat Melayu Islam.

Sekian saja entri ini. Renungkanlah untuk sedar apakah aspirasi kita.
Sungguh emosi dan agak patriot untukku menelurkan entri ini.

ekspresi merdeka kah kita ini

Elarti (LRT) dari Bangsar ke Ampang antara jam 7.30 pagi ke 9.40 pagi rutinnya anda akan terpaksa bersesak, tercium pelbagai bau deodoran dan perfum.

Yang sempat duduk kelihatannya mula ramai yang membaca, yang bersandar di dinding atau di tiang segelintirnya rajin ber'sms', kekadang tertawa dan terbeliak ke skrin fon genggam (handphone la benda alah ini).

Dan sebelum koc-koc menumpahkan 'tentera pagi'nya di KL Sentral, kita mungkin sempat juga meliahat atau terlihat beberapa orang menguap. Rupa-rupanya masih ada juga yang layu di pagi yang ayu.

Terlihat sejemput penumpang yang membaca, juga segelintir yang berselerak asyik melayan fon genggam yang semakin "menguasai" manusia. Nyata benar e-dagang, e-cinta dan e-gosip sentiasa cergas berkomunikasi dalam elarti, dalam barisan menunggu bas dan tidak mustahil di dalam tandas.

Sepintas lalu apakah sebenarnya yang jelas bercerita oleh rutin kehidupan sebegini? Berbeza-beza dan banyak. Yang pasti, manusia Kuala Lumpur memang rata-ratanya cergas bekerja, rajin bercakap, bernafsu makan, santai berbelanja dan jangan lupa kedekut seni.

Entri ini akan bersambung...ini hanya sepintas lalu ekspresi diambang sambutan kemerdekaan kita...

8 Jul 2009

U piss me. I diss you!



There is something I'd like to mention about the few irritation religious lot. I could not emphasize that few enough for I don't really want people to think I'm an extreme hedonist and memperkecilkan agama sort of person.

Once, I was in a YM conversation with a friend of mine, who I'd categorize as a well-informed guy on religious matters. He was asking about our former friends bla bla bla and so it was natural to update on who's been coupling and so on....

To my annoyance however he kept enquiring as to why these and that people are not married and blatantly say haram (alohaaa...this couple always had the 3rd person with them)...



"This people should better for they were both naqib and naqibah..." yada yada yada... further adding 'why didn't you advice them?' sort of thing... Ayooo pleasela don't bring the subject to me to advice them... for I've sinned and done things that I'm unproud of. So duh...drop it!


Why do you think I'm in sociology anyway? To repent, to redeem myself in one way or another...lol..miahahaha...I'm warped on tooooo many self-conflict.

I don't remember how the conversation ended...but oh well he's not in my YM list anymore.
hihihi emo kan I nih? U piss me. I diss you!

29 Apr 2009

I LOVE YOU


What is the theme of almost every song and novel, and every movie ever made?

LOVE!

Lost love, found love, puppy love,risky love, scorned love... Nearly everything we do is an attempt to get more love. We buy cool clothes, flash cars and climb the corporate ladder. We do crash diets, get botox, get braces, and pierce our body parts.

Once, I figure, "If I look sexy, people will love me." "If I am clever, people will love me." "If I an 97% wrinkle free, he will love me."

Every person I ever meet was aching for love and acceptance- and some are doing crazy things to get it. They are so busy trying to find love that they sometimes forget to tell people we care about how we feel...

He said " I told her last month that I love her. Can't she remember?" She remembers, but she wants to be told every month. Actually, wants to be told everyday!

Ive lost count of the number of grown men who have said to me that he loved me.

But too often we wait for tragedy before we tell people what they always wanted to hear. Sometimes the tragedy means it's too late to tell them.

p/s I love my parents,my siblings, my friends and my perfection...

24 Apr 2009

Laws of Life

I knew this guy called D. He was forever telling people, “Everything I earn goes to pay bills”. he was like a parrot! And no surprise…he was always broke.

Your language shapes your life. if you tell people you’re always broke, you will likely stay broke. If you expect to forget, you will forget! If you expect to behave like an idiot…

Imagine a boxer stepping into the ring, and telling himself: “I’m a loser. I’m a chicken!” How long would he last?

Imagine a singer walking on stage, and telling herself: “I’m hopeless. They’ll hate me!” How well would she sing? it is a recipe for disaster.

Yet, lot of us use this same recipe everyday. We tell ourselves : “I’m fat.” “I have a lousy memory.” “I’m always broke.” “I’m an idiot.” Then we wonder why we fail!

So how do we start to think positively? The first step is to watch our mouth! Notice what you SAY about youself.

From today, NEVER SAY ANYTHING BAD ABOUT YOURSELF. Never tell people: “I’m useless, I always screw up, my girlfriends always dump me…”

Make a commitment. “From today I will not criticize myself. If I have nothing good to say about me, I will keep my mouth shut.”

Its sometimes hard to control our thoughts-but we can control what comes from our mouth. once we take control of our language, we begin to have more positive thoughts and life gets better.

I came up with this post because I cannot stand anymore of getting to know that my friend D always negative about himself. Its look like please dont tell me more about you. No one has to stay stuck. If you are serious, you can change. You’re a human being-you’re not a tree.

Thank you.

13 Apr 2009

me to my friends; bukit cerakah 2009


kadang2 ku ada terfikir jugak, kenapa ku suka berkawan yang orangnya perangai pelik2. aku pun perangainya pelik ke? dari senarai kawan2 ku, ku rasakan yang ianya walaupun pelik, tapi sangat sempurna. dari yang macam2 ni, semua aku dapat kategorikan it’s reali complicated and problematic. it juz lama tak lama aku belajar situ, kawan2 aku ramai jugak - yang ngam dan tak ngam; sorang suka main cakap lepas, seorang kurang ajar tak ingat, sorang suka drag others into problems…..and macam2la perangai pelik diaorang. aku sesungguhnya sedar dan arif tentang perangai slack budak2 ni…

barangkali it’s their honesty that made me want to be with them. to get to know them deep down inside. padahal aku bukannya mau at the first place….pakai common sense lah… sape yang mau kawan dengan orangnya yang perangai pelik? phsyco la. but i was-otherwise..the other way around…Yoh!

bukan nak menggangkat diri-time sekola aku rasa aku da unleashed the real me. cam ertikata aku da kenal dan tau diri aku"siapa" and i’m trying to compare this and that. yeah…family was very helpful to teach me that kind of me…and now it’s like introverts i befriended with, I changed them. i’m sort of an introverts myself- and i tell you, introverts are full of surprises jugaklah…Yoh! Hahah

those with difficult personalities pun aku kawan jugak. jenis yang panas baran, susah nak predict-itupun kawanku jugak. macam tu la. aku tak pilih kawan. and i believe that every human have their flaws and have their moments. gi time sekolah dulu yaa- teen angst, so moments came anytime they please. but i stood by them when others turn their backs. the amazing thing was: these type of people openly expressed how they feel, how they really are to me- and i discovered that they aren’t as bad as others thought. it intrigued me to know what’s within that difficult personality. yang orang lain heran " Apa bagus sangat ke kawan ngan budak cam gitu?" Yalah…korang tak tahu….. Like i said, semua yang bernama manusia ada kelemahan and if you actually take the time to be with them though thick and thin, you’ll understand the real person underneath that exterior.

perhaps it takes patience to be with difficult people. i realize that tak semua orang penyabar. till right now, 2-3 orang kawanku bukannya elok sangat pun adab bertuturnya. at times, aku jadi mangsa buli jugak. tapi hujung2nya aku tak amik terasa ke ape. that’s when i started to accept the fact that, ada orang yang perangainya cam due to their upbringing and whatnot. namun papehal akan tetap cari aku, regarding jiwa kacau…hahah. they just expressed what they felt to me. padahal masing2 ada kawan baek tapi aku jugak yang dicari. aku pun dengarlah jugak and gave my opinions when necessary. some of them pun, i noticed had changed more or less lepas lepak ngan ku. dulu suka cakap lepas, sekarang ni da watching out what they said. i’ll put it this way- I’m the Yang to their Ying, I’m the neutralizer. I’m the water to their fire. rasa best dan bangga…hahah. I changed people’s lives internally. aku pun rasa happy jugak seeing positive changes and most of them are contented with themselves unlike before. That’s how peer influences can do to anyone.

so that’s when the ‘Opposite Attract’ theory proves it right. aku pun bukannya baek. tapi nature aku memang cam tu….. Be nice to everyone regardless of how they treat you. Buat bait, balas bait. As simple as that. the nice thing about what i went through-Igained trust. I know what they are going through. I know the story behind theexternal bitterness.

the best part? I developed the mutual understanding and a long lasting friendship with them…only with sokngan padu yang jitu. hahah….but take my word for it though..

for only the human that proves me as your frens, aku tak nak ada yang terasa ke kecik hati ke apa dengan apa yang aku cakapdalam situ. lagipun ku tak pangkah nama sesapa pun. But yeah…you all taught me a lot of determination, patience and

preseverance and sociology huehuehue…susah sebenarnya aku nak pahan fiil korang. Regardless of all that, ku sayang korang tak kira apa.

a true and a real friendship is not based on being choosy but understanding.