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Dear Stranger

July 9th, 2024

How can i feel empty and whole at the same time. How can i feel the love and pain in the same person. How can I possibly heal and break myself again and again? Why would i fight within myself. What would i fight against when I know emotions are too painful. When life is here why would I worry about the failure. For all I learnt, pain can become anything I choose. And so is life!!

© Happie Soul
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December 26th, 2023

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The Intense Love

December 2nd, 2023

How could I define love? How could it be so light and dark at the same time? How could it make you love and suffer with all its emotions? How could it break and heal you in a matter of time? 

It’s not that I don’t understand what love is exactly. Maybe it’s that I try to understand how deep and dark it could be. I’m trying to understand my pain before putting it in you. I’m trying to make my love to understand my emotions with my bare feelings. I know it’s painful. But emotions are real.
The pain and is real. The sufferings are real.  And that’s real. 

However deep and intense the love could be. Still a love could possibly hurt you and turn you dead taking all your emotions. It’s like, I’m being caged in my own emotions and I’m not able to free myself even with all my strength. It’s like I’m fighting with my emotions that couldn’t handle you.  That’s what pain is. It keeps me dead. And I never want this love to be my pain.

It’s easy to understand someone you love. But it’s never easy to save your love from pain and hurt. It’s always be a part of love. You will keep hurting your love. You will keep hating a part of them. It’s of matter of understanding and accepting the reality of situation. That’s how you save this love. Love isn’t just love. It’s all emotions. It’s all how you make them feel when you are not around and not how deep you love in the end. 

- Happie Soul

YOU!!

November 24th, 2023

Perhaps,
If I had to miss you,
I would have to risk my entire life.
to taste the hell of darkness!!
- Happie Soul

A Woman Is An Art.

November 14th, 2023

What could be an art?
If not a woman?

Isn’t it an art, when someone makes you feel alive with a gentle touch and a hug? Doesn’t it feel like a magic? It does. I have been broken and dead. I know, what the pain could possibly do. I know how exactly it hurts. It’s like someone is screaming hard and no one could hear it out. Love could be more painful than what we ever think. But still, we all fall for love. Without love we are nothing.

Whatever may love did to us, however bad it may hurt us. We still got a life to live and that’s for love. We can’t chase love either we can’t choose. Love is different when it’s real. And when it happens you will bloom on your own. The pain and scars are no more a nightmare. Life could be insane and uncertain but still you won’t be afraid of this pain. You will be hugged in all your darkness. You will have enough strength to fight back throughout life. You will have a home that never lets you feel so lonely. And that’s exactly I got. A home and that’s my art. I keep craving for this never-ending love. I keep craving for this gentle and wild touch that keeps me all alive. And I know, what my carvings makes me.
- Happie Soul

The darkness

October 30th, 2023

The darkness lies everywhere upon me within these four walls.
It’s only me who could feel the strength of this pain.
I could possibly see a part of me is rotting,
And could not help myself rather than watching it.
It’s not a hope,
That this pain will make me strong.
I know,
If its pain then it will make me live.
If not today,
Maybe the next day.
Maybe the following day.
Maybe someday!!
- Happie Soul

23 October 12.59 AM

October 23rd, 2023


Is love a pain? 

Perhaps, 
I just need to practice myself to not fall in love with a person who is emotionally weak as me. How could we both handle the pain at the same time? I thought understanding reality could help us. But it made us even worse. The more we talk the more hard it becomes. I'm scared of this love. I'm scared of my emotions. I'm scared of being hurt and broke. It's not about the pain but it's about the love. It's about the person. How could someone make you feel everything and still sweep off everything within a flash. How hard this life could be? How long this could last?  I know pain is a real part of love. But how could I watch it taking my life. Love can't be cruel. When you love someone all you do is you keep hurting them. You keep missing them. You let them play with your emotions. That's the thing about love. It kills you when you feel all alive. That's what love could possibly do!! 
© Happie Soul

Being Loved.

October 21st, 2023

And someday,
I will be loved.
I will be loved without any condition and compulsion.
Isn’t that more than enough?
Isn’t it a magic?
To find someone who understand all your flaws 
And could still feel the emotions behind it.
It’s not just love,
We all fall for.
It’s that person,
It’s always that person.
We all fall for.
It’s all about the bond and connection,
And we could not just put it in words.
It’s that person.
Just some who keep you all alive and let you live?
A kind of magic,
I could only feel and fall for!!
- Happie Soul

12 October 2023

October 13th, 2023

Oh! Darling.
I know, I've been lost.
I don't know where I've been.
But I know, where I'm now.
It feels like I'm home.
A safe place,
Enough to hold my shaking hands,
Trembling and breaking heart.
And this feels more than enough.
You're my home.
And I'm living your days.
It's beautiful,
You keep me alive and fresh.
You hug me with endless love.
And more than that,
You could possibly feel my soul more than me.
And love it anyway.
You didn't heal me,
You didn't help me to overcome my past.
But you vanished all the dark shades of my life.
Is that all a love could do?
I know, it's easy to be someone's everything.
But it isn't easy to feel someone, the way they feel.
It ain't easy to understand their emotions in all their feelings.
But you made it so easy.
You're all love.
And you're enough.
You're the only moon,
In my universe.

You Mad Woman
© Happie Soul

A Mad Woman Who Was Scared of Her Life Itself.

October 9th, 2023


You can’t make homes out of humans. 
I won’t let you make or live one. 
You can’t chase love. 
You can’t be afraid of people. 
You can’t be afraid of love. 
Neither you can’t be afraid of pain. 
Life is uncertain. 
Life is all about happenings. 
Life is all about people. 
You may have a past, 
And it may have burnt you alive. 
But that’s what we people are capable of. 
We hate and hurt the one who we love. 
We kill them with hurt and pain. 
We make them live and 
We make them afraid of being alive in life. 
Also, if you have to worry about life, love and people who are into it, 
You can never get to live your life. 
To live, 
Is to suffer. 
You can’t choose a life without human. 
You can’t choose a life with love. 
You can’t choose to live with pain and hurt. 
To love, 
Is to be loved. 
And that’s it. 
Isn’t that makes you live?
- Happie Soul