Sometimes I look at my life and just have to sit and think about how blessed I really am. I have four beautiful daughters who are the light of my life. They are smart, funny, kind, tenderhearted and just plain amazing. Sure they have their moments and at times I pull my hair out and wonder how on earth I can last until bedtime. All that being said the happy moments are so much more than the hard ones. They are growing and growing not only physically but spiritually as well. They have such a special understanding of the Gospel. They are getting to know their Heavenly Father and realizing how much He loves them.
Since we have started to do foster care I think that they have learned and felt more about our Heavenly Father and his love. Each child that has come into our home as their own special story. Whether it be neglect, abuse or both my children have learned to love each child that comes here. We talk about how every person on this earth is a child of God. They have learned about good and bad decisions and consequences that follow. They have learned that even though these beautiful little children may not be in our home for long it is important for them to feel loved and special.
Bailey and Aislynn started singing to the older children we have gotten. R and L and A(since my blog isn't private I am not supposed to put pictures or their names on the blog) absolutely loved it. R is still here and he requests it all the time. There is singing time and story time and prayers and hugs and kisses. It is amazing that no matter what type of home these children have been raised in once they start learning about Heavenly Father and Jesus and the Gospel it is almost like their little spirits remember. They want to learn more and they want to pray. Little R will often be in the back of the van practicing his prayers.
Many people did not understand our decision to do foster care. To expose our children to so many different children and have them bond with them and then have them taken away. I have had so many people tell me that "you never get a break, you alway have so many children with you." It was a prayerful decision. It wasn't something that we decided overnight. We weighed all the options. We knew it wasn't always going to be easy. It is never easy saying goodbye to a baby that you have had since he was a newborn and got to keep for five months. You love them. You love each one of them that comes into your home. You love them because they ARE each children of God. You love them because they are children and deserved to be loved. You love them because they are such special spirits who have already endured so much in such a short time. You love them because you think about yourself. You think what if I was in that situation. I would want someone to love my children, to be kind to them, to nuture and protect them.
Our whole family has been blessed by this decision. Each child has given us something special to keep and to remember. I am blessed. There is no doubt about it.