
Back when I was 19 and attending York University, I saw a sign for a road hockey tournament.
Not “ball hockey”. Road hockey.
I think a guy from one of my math classes mentioned it to me, and he either played organized ball hockey or had played organized ice hockey before, I can’t remember anymore. What I do remember is that I had never played any organized hockey in my life.
I couldn’t skate. I still can’t really skate, and I grew up quite heavy, so while I played loads of street hockey in front of my house, that was the extent of my fitness capabilities.
Which, as a Canadian male, is basically like admitting you can’t read.
But I could play road hockey. I was decent. I learned to shoot from a Guy Lafleur VHS video and I wore my hockey sticks to the ground scraping them across the street. Every kid in the neighbourhood did. Tennis ball. Orange ball. Car! Goalies out. Broken nets. Frozen hands. Somebody’s dad yelling because the ball hit the garage door.
So we put together a team and entered this tournament in the back parking lot of York University.
And somehow… we won.
I honestly can’t even fully remember if I played or mostly coached and organized things, but I remember being heavily involved and realizing pretty quickly that I loved the strategy and chaos of hockey culture.
Afterward my buddy said:
“We should join a league. We would win every game.”
And that decision basically changed the next 35 years of my life.
The league, the North West Toronto Ball Hockey League (NWTBHL) played out of an arena in Thornhill called Garnet A. Williams, which, as far as I remember was Olympic-sized, which was horrifying because I was already a heavy guy back then. Probably 200 or 210 pounds. Not exactly known for cardio excellence. At 200 feet by 100 feet, this rink was absolutely massive to stand inside, let alone play inside it.
And because I had never actually played organized hockey before, I decided not to play initially.
I coached.
For four straight years our team lost every single game.
And not by a little.
Like 14-0.
Weekly.
See, it was technically a Tier 4 league, but all the guys who didn’t think they were good enough for Tier 2 would quietly drop down and absolutely dominate Tier 4 instead.
So every team was loaded.
Except ours.
We were basically enthusiastic pylons with decent attendance.
But weirdly, we had fun.
We paid on time.
We showed up.
We didn’t start fights.
We kept morale up.
And somehow I actually won Coach/Manager of the Year several times despite us being spectacularly terrible.
That still makes me laugh.
Eventually we started running short players some nights and I finally said:
“Screw it. I’m playing.”
Now imagine trying to play competitive ball hockey in an Olympic-sized arena wearing glasses under a cage while everything fogs up and you can barely see the floor.
That was my NHL debut.
But I stuck with it.
And over time I got better.
Then better players joined.
Then we actually became competitive.
Then suddenly I wasn’t just some guy standing on the bench organizing lines anymore, I was one of the core guys on the team.
I mostly played defense.
I learned positioning.
Learned systems.
Learned how to slow games down.
Learned how to quarterback breakouts.
There were seasons we only had seven or eight guys, so we basically played the entire game half-dead.
And somehow… it became one of the best parts of my life.
We won championships.
We had rivalries.
We had road trips to the Provincial Championships.
We had inside jokes. (Nobody intimidates Gino!)
And we also got absolutely destroyed physically because old-school Ontario ball hockey was basically controlled violence.
At one point I got elbowed in the face and my teeth went through my bottom lip. Needed stitches. Completely ruined my plans to go see Les Misérables the next night.
Which was fitting because I was, in fact, miserable.
I got hammered from behind into the boards and separated my shoulder.
I got slashed in the head.
Blocked shots off ankles, knees, thighs, wrists.
The giant purple ball hockey bruises became almost a badge of honour.
And somehow we all treated this like perfectly normal adult behaviour.
Apparently Canadian men process trauma by buying shin pads.
I remember being in my 20s and seeing the Masters Division guys, players in their 30s, and thinking:
“There is absolutely no way I’ll still be playing at that age.”
First of all, they looked ancient to me.
Second, they were unbelievable.
I remember watching them and thinking:
“Nope. Not happening.”
And then somehow life happens.
Your 20s disappear.
Then your 30s.
Then work gets busier.
Marriage.
3 Kids.
Responsibilities.
I dropped down to one or two games a week.
Still played.
Still competed.
Still won the occasional championship.
But eventually ball hockey became harder to fit into life.
I think my last real game for years was around 2015.
And I scored a hat trick.
Now if you know anything about me as a player, that’s hilarious because I was mostly a defensive defenseman. Offense was not exactly my signature trait.
But I remember the referee handing me the game ball afterward.
And I took tape and wrote:
“Warren’s First Hat Trick.”
Put the date on it.
And I remember thinking:
“Okay. Maybe that’s the perfect ending.”
But apparently hockey wasn’t done with me yet.
At some point the league moved from concrete floors to these multi-purpose sport tiles at Vaughan Sportsplex.
And one night attempting a comeback because I was getting “chubbier” I stepped awkwardly coming off the bench, felt a pop in my calf, and immediately knew something was wrong.
I could barely walk.
That injury scared me more than the shoulder separations or stitches ever did because it felt like my body suddenly had limits.
Real limits.
So I basically retired.
Then somewhere in my 50s I decided I hated the way I left the game.
At the same time, I had started seriously training.
For the last couple years I’ve been working with a personal trainer because I wanted to completely rebuild myself physically.
And weirdly, I got bigger.
Not fatter.
Bigger.
More muscle.
Smaller waist.
Stronger upper body.
I put on about 30 pounds of muscle.
Which sounds great until you realize that means I’m now trying to play ball hockey at around 260 pounds.
Turns out your calves have opinions about this.
So I joined a league again.
3 games into the first season back and I heard that magical “pop” in the same calf as before.
So, I Retired again.
Then this season I got a call about a Legends League for players over 40.
I thought:
“Perfect. Old guys. Gentle hockey. Some stretching. Maybe somebody brings oranges.”
No.
These were legends.
Every single guy looked like he had either captained Team Canada or spent 15 years terrorizing beer leagues across Ontario. In fact, on our team we had 2 players who currently play for Team Canada. They’re phenomenal players and equally awesome teammates.
And somehow I survived.
Slowly.
Carefully.
Terrified my calf would explode every shift.
Then one game I decided it would be fun to play forward, so on one of my early shifts I went to stand in front of the oppositions goal, and a teammate of mine blasted a slapshot from the point directly into the tip of my toe and into the net.
My toe / toenail basically detached / blew itself apart from society.
The thing turned purple, green, red colours not normally found in nature.
I couldn’t walk for three days.
I missed the rest of the season, but made it back for the playoffs and scored the opening goal in the second round.
Classic ugly defenseman goal too.
Point shot.
Traffic.
Beat the goalie in the 5-hole.
My specialty.
Then the league contacted me and invited me to the All-Star Game.
Which honestly shocked me.
I said:
“You sure you can’t find better players?”
And the organizer basically said:
“No. I want good people there.”
That hit me harder than I expected.
Because at 55, you start realizing something important:
Nobody really cares anymore whether you scored 30 goals in men’s league hockey twenty years ago.
But people remember if you were a good teammate.
If you were respectful.
Positive.
Reliable.
Supportive.
That stuff lasts longer than stats.
So I went to the All-Star Game in King City.
Three 20-minute periods.
Which, for a 55-year-old with questionable knees and a history of calf explosions, felt less like hockey and more like a military operation.
I stretched.
Mentally prepared for death.
And honestly?
I played great.
For me, anyway.
Most shots on goal on either team.
A beautiful assist (a rarity for someone who plays with their head down and blinders on).
A couple near misses.
I was thrilled.
We lost 8-7.
Then with about two minutes left, there was a scramble near the point, I pivoted awkwardly trying to get back defensively…
…and felt the pop.
Right calf.
Again. Different calf, but same sensation.
I hobbled to the bench thinking:
“You have got to be kidding me.”
The worst part was that it was my driving leg.
So now I’m limping around downtown Toronto later that night trying to go to the theatre while pretending everything is fine.
Which, honestly, is basically the full adult male experience.
The next morning my calf actually felt a bit better.
But my knee?
My knee looked like it had swallowed a softball.
Completely swollen.
Could barely walk.
Could barely do stairs.
And suddenly I’m wondering if I just blew up my entire playoff run.
Again.
But honestly, the bigger realization hit me afterward.
If you had told 19-year-old me that at 55 years old I’d still be playing competitive hockey, not just playing, but getting invited to an All-Star Game, I would have laughed in your face.
I genuinely didn’t think men did things like this at 55.
Not the men I grew up around. My dad had shoulder problems in his 30s. Playing catch with me hurt him.
There wasn’t really a blueprint in my family for staying athletic into your 50s.
And yet somehow here I am.
Still trying.
Still competing.
Still limping.
Still stretching.
Still trying to hold things together like a Canadian Tire repair project.
And maybe that’s the real point.
Getting older is weird because the highs and lows start arriving together.
You can feel proud and broken at the exact same time.
You can have the best season you’ve had in years while simultaneously icing three body parts and googling orthopedic surgeons.
You can feel young mentally while your knee files formal complaints with management.
But I think there’s something important about refusing to quietly disappear from the parts of yourself you loved.
Even if you have to limp there sometimes.
Note: This season concluded with a championship, first in the history of the Legends league, and somewhere between 6th to 10th for me. I coached. Couldn’t play. I’ve got a fairly substantial physio schedule ahead to strengthen the knees and calves and sort out the extent of the clicking in my knee (miniscus?).
It’s very much been highs and lows with me lately… With the good always comes something bad and with the bad always comes something good. I’m just thankful to be able to be doing this at my age. Truly blessed.





