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  • Existential Soup for the Soul

    If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite? A Divine Roast of Humanity with Extra Existential Dressing Disclaimer: Before you call a priest, a philosopher, or a psychiatric hotline, let me clarify, I am fully aware that God is not RSVPing to my dinner anytime […]

    Existential Soup for the Soul
  • Optimism With Poor Risk Assessment


    In response to Fandango’s Story Starter FSS#259

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    This week’s Story Starter teaser is:
    The old rope bridge had seen better days – much better days.


    The old rope bridge had seen better days – much better days. Possibly during the Ming Dynasty. Possibly never.

    I stood at the edge holding a laminated brochure that said ADVENTURE AWAITS in a font clearly designed by someone who had never personally experienced consequences.

    The photograph showed a woman in beige hiking trousers crossing the same bridge with the serene smile of someone who had either never known fear or had been photographed immediately before learning about it. Her hair floated beautifully in the breeze. Mine had already entered a small but determined war with my face.

    There is something deeply dishonest about adventure brochures. They never show the part where you stand at the entrance wondering whether the person who designed the attraction has actually used it. They don’t photograph the rusty warning signs, the questionable handrails, or the employee who says, “Oh, yes, people cross that all the time,” in precisely the tone of someone who has never crossed it himself. Adventure, according to the brochure, is breathtaking scenery and personal transformation. In reality, it is often just poor judgment with better marketing.

    The bridge was made of rope, wooden planks and what I can only assume was collective optimism. It had the structural integrity of an old shoelace and the general appearance of something that had been assembled during a power outage. According to the small plaque beside it, it had last been inspected in 1987 by a gentleman named Gary. I found this oddly reassuring until I noticed that the plaque had been polished recently, while the bridge itself appeared to have been last touched when Gary was still young and optimistic.

    Gary has presumably moved on with his life. The bridge has not been given that opportunity.

    I took my first step.
    The bridge groaned.

    Not creaked. Groaned. There is a difference. A creak is a sound made by an object acknowledging that it has weight. A groan is what something makes when it has reviewed the situation and found the situation disappointing. This was the sound of a bridge that had seen things.

    I froze.
    The bridge swayed gently beneath me, as though it were trying to reassure me while simultaneously considering murder.

    Below, the river continued on its way with the smug indifference of something that has never once had to make a decision about its career, renew a passport, answer a passive-aggressive email or remember why it had walked into a room.

    I looked down.

    The river looked alarmingly far away.

    I looked ahead.

    The other side suddenly seemed less like a destination and more like a rumor.

    And this, I realized, is basically the human condition. We are all crossing bridges that have seen better days, made from materials we didn’t choose, maintained by people we’ve never met, suspended over things we try very hard not to think about. The only difference is that most people don’t get a laminated brochure promising ADVENTURE AWAITS. They get LinkedIn.

    I took another step. The bridge moved. I moved. The bridge moved again.

    At this point, we had established a relationship. It was complicated, unhealthy and entirely one-sided.

    Halfway across, a plank gave a theatrical wobble. Not enough to kill me. Just enough to make my brain open every file it had ever stored under the heading REGRETS. In approximately four seconds, I reviewed career choices, financial decisions, relationships, that email I never sent, the email I absolutely should not have sent, and whether I had lived a meaningful life.

    This was my existential crisis, apparently. Other people meditate in Himalayan monasteries. I did it standing on a piece of timber suspended over a river.

    I briefly wondered whether the universe cared.

    It did not.

    The universe wasn’t even watching. The universe was somewhere else entirely, probably checking its phone and ignoring my calls.

    Then came the man with the selfie stick.

    He appeared behind me with the confidence of someone who had either completely misunderstood the concept of danger or had been raised without access to common sense. He was smiling. He wanted a photograph.

    On a rope bridge. Over a river. With one hand holding a selfie stick.

    This wasn’t bravery. This was natural selection with accessories.

    “Could you move forward?” he asked cheerfully.

    I looked at him.
    I looked at the bridge.
    I looked at the river.

    I considered whether throwing the selfie stick over the railing would constitute an act of public service.

    Instead, I moved.

    Because apparently, when faced with certain death, my survival instincts can still be defeated by the fear of being perceived as inconvenient.

    I continued across, one plank at a time, negotiating with the bridge as I went. “Listen,” I whispered, “I don’t want trouble. You don’t want trouble. Let’s just get through this with dignity.”

    The bridge groaned again.
    I took that as a counteroffer.

    A particularly large plank shifted beneath my foot, and I suddenly understood why people in disaster movies always scream their loved ones’ names. Unfortunately, I couldn’t think of anyone’s name. My entire cognitive system had narrowed its focus to one urgent question: Which part of the bridge is still attached?

    I made it to the other side.

    I stepped onto solid ground and stood there for several seconds, breathing like a person who had just completed an Olympic event rather than a twenty minute activity designed for tourists wearing sandals.

    I had expected an epiphany.

    Perhaps I would understand something profound about life. Perhaps the bridge would teach me that fear is temporary, courage is a choice and we should embrace uncertainty.

    It taught me about rope tensile strength.

    That was about it.

    There was no spiritual awakening. No character development. No sudden desire to quit my job and open a bakery in Tuscany. I simply had sweaty palms, a mild ringing in my ears and a new respect for whoever had apparently decided that rope was an appropriate building material.

    And perhaps that is the real lesson of the rope bridge.

    We spend an extraordinary amount of our lives standing at the edge of things that look structurally unsound and asking ourselves, How bad could it really be?

    We do it with careers. We do it with relationships. We do it with questionable financial decisions. We do it with technology updates we install at midnight. We do it with messages that begin, “I don’t want to make this awkward, but…”

    We know the warning signs. We read them. We understand them. Then we cross anyway.

    Perhaps that isn’t courage. Perhaps it isn’t stupidity either.

    Perhaps it is simply optimism with poor risk assessment.

    As for the bridge, it is still standing. Somewhere, probably swaying gently in the breeze, waiting patiently for the next person with a laminated brochure and an underdeveloped sense of self-preservation.

    I like to think Gary would be proud.

    Or horrified. Either way, I hope he had good insurance.

    And if I ever see that bridge again, I will absolutely cross it. Not because I have learned nothing. Because I have learned something very important.

    Next time, I’m bringing the selfie stick.


    © Rohini 2009–2025.
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    “There is a fine line between courage and poor judgment. Most of us cross it daily.”


  • The Light We Carry Home


    In response to pensivity’s Monday Wordle #489

    once, three, haven, peace, thoughts, why, angry, if, final, love, none & dream’

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    Once, there was a heart
    that carried three small wishes –
    a little haven,
    a little peace,
    and enough quiet
    for its thoughts to breathe.

    It never understood why
    the heart had to grow angry,
    why every if
    had to become a question,
    why every goodbye
    felt like a final door.

    And yet,
    there was love.

    Not the loud kind,
    but the kind that stayed
    after the footsteps faded,
    after the voices grew still,
    after none of the answers
    were left.

    Perhaps love is simply this…

    to hold someone
    long after you can no longer hold their hand,
    to carry their laughter
    into rooms they will never enter,
    to remember them
    without asking the world
    to give them back.

    And perhaps a dream
    is not something we chase
    into tomorrow.

    Perhaps it is the small,
    brave light within us
    that whispers –

    begin again.

    Because nothing we truly love
    is ever entirely lost.

    Some things become memories.

    Some become scars.

    And some,

    quietly become
    the light
    by which we find
    our way home.


    © Rohini 2009–2025.
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    Sometimes healing is not about forgetting what we lost, but learning to carry it without letting it weigh down the life that still awaits us.

  • The Word That Ate My Sanity

    What is a word you feel that too many people use? The most overused word in the English language and why it has personally ruined my life? There are many terrible afflictions in the modern world, rising sea levels, global political instability, and the fact that someone thought it was a good idea to put […]

    The Word That Ate My Sanity
  • Not All Heroes Wear Capes – Some Carry Inhalers

    What’s a moment when a stranger completely restored your faith in people?

    Foreword
    Sometimes the universe asks us the same question twice.
    Today’s prompt asks: What’s a moment when a stranger completely restored your faith in strangers?

    And I thought, I know this one.

    I’ve written about this encounter before, when the question was slightly different: Describe a random encounter with a stranger that stuck out positively to you.

    Same memory. Same stranger. Same little moment of unexpected goodness.

    But perhaps that is the thing about certain stories. They don’t really belong to one question. They simply wait patiently until another question comes along and gives them a reason to be told again.

    So here it is, an old story in a new setting. Consider it the same wine in a new, considerably shinier bottle.

    Because sometimes a stranger does something so quietly kind that years later, you still remember it.

    And sometimes the best answer to a question about faith in strangers is simply to tell the story of the stranger who gave you some back.


    It was October 30th, 2023 – just a day before Halloween, and ironically, the scariest night of my life.

    I had been attending a massive outdoor concert in Delhi – one of those music festivals where the energy of thousands pulses through the air, and the ground hums with the rhythm of unrelenting bass. I was there with friends, swept away by the music and the crowd. Until the music stopped. Not with a gentle fade out, but abruptly – like someone pulled the plug on reality itself.

    Suddenly, the crowd surged. A rumor had sparked panic. Someone shouted “fire!” – others screamed “bomb!” I never knew the truth of what started it. What I do know is that within seconds, we were all running, stumbling, shouting and pushing.

    And somewhere between that chaos and the cloud of dust and bodies, I lost my bag.

    More importantly, I lost my inhaler.

    I have asthma – not the kind you “grow out of” or only need meds for occasionally. The kind that tightens your chest with invisible fingers, steals your breath mid-sentence, and blurs the world with the sheer panic of not being able to inhale fully.

    I remember falling near a barricade. My chest was burning, not from the run, but from the lack of air. I was gasping, trembling, wheezing in a way that no one seemed to notice or care, because everyone was too busy trying to survive their own fear.

    And then, through the blur of my tears and dizziness, I saw a hand.

    A gloved hand.

    “You’re okay. You’re going to breathe again,” the voice said. Calm, deep and soothing.

    I couldn’t see his face clearly – he had a hoodie pulled low and a mask covering the rest. But his presence cut through the madness like a lighthouse through storm clouds.

    He kneeled beside me and, without hesitation, pulled a compact inhaler out of his jacket pocket.“Same brand,” he said.

    He checked the dose count, clicked it open, and helped me take a controlled puff, steadying my hand and counting with me. “One…two…slowly…breathe…”

    Even in that moment, on the razor’s edge between life and death, my mind, ever the skeptic, questioned: What if it’s expired? What if it’s contaminated? Should I even trust a stranger’s inhaler?

    But another voice, deeper and more primal, screamed louder: You won’t make it otherwise.

    I chose trust.

    The world slowed. The panic receded like a tide. My lungs began to catch up with my heart.“I… I lost mine,” I whispered. He just nodded.He stayed with me for no more than three minutes – yet in that time, he not only saved my breath but steadied my soul.

    When the medics finally arrived, he vanished. No name. No goodbye.

    Just a whisper: “You’ll be okay. Someone had to be there.”I never saw him again.

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    But his memory lingers louder than the music that night. He didn’t want to be found. Didn’t want applause. Didn’t stay for the gratitude.

    And that’s what makes him unforgettable.

    To the stranger in the smoke – if by some miracle you’re reading this, know that I owe you my life. I breathe today because you chose to care in the middle of chaos. You, sir, are the kind of superhero this world truly needs – one who wears no cape, but carries a calm kind heart, and an inhaler.

    Since that night, I’ve carried more than just the memory of your kindness. I’ve carried your spirit.

    You’ve changed something in me.

    Where once I might’ve walked past someone in distress, I now stop. Where once I thought “someone else will help,” I now remember that you didn’t think that. You helped. You acted. And because of you, I’ve joined local volunteer efforts to support people with chronic illnesses and even signed up for CPR and first aid training.

    Your courage wasn’t just a lifeline in the moment, it became a compass pointing me toward something greater.

    In a world addicted to likes and attention, you reminded me of quiet courage. Of the extraordinary tucked inside the ordinary.

    Wherever you are, I hope you’re still out there, saving lives without needing a headline.You spread light the way dawn does, without applause, yet impossible to ignore.


    © Rohini 2009–2025.
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  • The Hill To Childhood


    In response to pensivity’s 3TC #MM514

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    Your three words today are:
    HILL
    HIP
    HIND


    I live in Tokyo, where local buses are sealed, air-conditioned affairs that glide through traffic with the quiet efficiency of a machine that has its life together.

    You get on, find a seat, and immediately put your phone on manner mode – Japan’s wonderfully polite way of saying, Your phone may accompany you, but it is not invited to participate in public life.

    The sound is off, conversations are kept to a minimum, and forty strangers can travel together in almost complete silence without anyone feeling the need to announce their weekend plans.

    Mostly, it is pin-drop quiet, broken only by the occasional cough, followed by the immediate, guilty glance around the bus, as though the cough itself has violated public etiquette. It is so peaceful that sometimes I suspect the passengers aren’t commuting at all. They may simply be collectively practising the ancient Japanese art of pretending nobody else exists.

    And I have to admit, I rather like it.

    So, when I was sent on assignment to Port Louis, for a business proposal and discovered that they still had open local buses, I was absurdly delighted.

    I mean, properly delighted. I stood at the bus stop staring at it as though I had discovered a long-lost relative.

    There it was – an old-fashioned open bus with rows of seats, an open side, and the general appearance of something that had escaped from one of my childhood memories and parked itself in front of me.

    I immediately became eight years old. I wanted that bus. Not another bus. That bus.

    There are certain things adulthood takes away from you without asking. Afternoon naps. Uncomplicated friendships. The ability to eat an entire packet of biscuits without wondering whether you have made a poor nutritional decision. And of course open buses. Seeing one again made me ridiculously nostalgic.

    I had a business proposal in my bag, a meeting scheduled, a respectable outfit, and the professional responsibility of a grown woman.

    None of this mattered. I wanted to ride that bus. Unfortunately, the bus stop was on the other side of a hill, because apparently nostalgia comes with a cardiovascular component.

    And this was not one of those decorative hills that gently suggests elevation. This hill had ambition. It rose before me like it had been personally appointed to prevent me from reconnecting with my childhood.

    I looked at the bus, then the hill and at my watch. The bus was due to leave in a few minutes. And suddenly I was no longer a woman on a business assignment. I was an Olympic athlete with a very specific event:

    100 metres. Open Bus. No Dignity. I started walking faster. Then, because the bus was still sitting there and my childhood was apparently waiting for me, I began to run.

    This was an extremely optimistic decision. My body had not been consulted. My hip, in particular, had not received the memo. Halfway up the hill, it went:

    Click.

    I slowed down.

    Click.

    I looked at my hip. I realize this sounds unreasonable, but I genuinely felt betrayed.

    I had not asked for much. I was merely trying to catch an open bus and briefly relive my childhood before attending a business meeting.

    My hip could have shown some solidarity. Instead, it began behaving like a badly assembled piece of furniture. I ran again. The bus was still there.

    Hope is a dangerous thing. I picked up speed.

    My handbag began hitting my side with the enthusiasm of a small, angry animal. My business proposal was bouncing against my hip. My hair was abandoning its professional arrangement. And then my hind entered the discussion.

    My hind has always been a quiet member of the team. It does not make demands. It does not seek attention. But apparently there are limits to what it will tolerate in the name of nostalgia. Halfway up the hill, my hind said, in its own unmistakable language:

    Absolutely not.

    I continued.

    It said:

    We need to discuss this.

    I ignored it. It escalated. My running style changed. I was no longer running toward the bus. I was running in a manner suggesting that I had suddenly become aware that my hind was being operated by a different department.

    A man coming down the hill looked at me. I looked at him for an instant and then we both looked away. There are moments when strangers politely agree not to acknowledge what they have witnessed. I was grateful, because this was one of those.

    The bus was still waiting. This was encouraging. I was nearly there.

    I could already imagine myself sitting in that open seat, the wind blowing through my hair, the quaint city unfolding around me, feeling once again like the child I had apparently been all morning.

    Then my hip clicked again. I ignored it.

    My hind objected. I ignored that too.

    The hill continued upward with the quiet cruelty of someone enjoying a private joke. I reached the bus stop. The bus was there. I stopped.

    I looked at the bus adoringly. I was breathless. Not charmingly or movie-star breathless. I looked like a woman who had just been chased uphill by her own skeleton.

    The driver waited. I stood there trying to recover enough oxygen to behave like a normal passenger. Then I realized something. I was on the wrong side of the road.

    This bus was not leaving. I had simply run up the wrong side of the hill. I had sprinted uphill, damaged my hip, offended my hind, dislodged my handbag and nearly sacrificed my business proposal…for a bus that was not even about to leave. I stood there in silence. The driver stared at me. There was no conversation to be had.

    I crossed the road at a dignified walking pace, or rather, what I hoped was a dignified walking pace. My hind had other ideas.

    The bus on the other side of the road was still there, waiting for me with the calm indifference of a creature that had not spent the last five minutes destroying its own musculoskeletal system to catch it.

    I climbed onto the bus. And then, finally, the miracle happened. I sat down. The wind touched my face and the city opened before me. The bus began to move. For a moment, I was transported straight back to childhood. And it was wonderful at first.

    Until a gust of wind hit my hair. My carefully arranged hair flew straight upward. My scarf attempted to leave the country. My handbag sprang open, and my business proposal made a break for freedom, scattering itself across the floor like it had also decided it wanted nothing to do with the meeting. A receipt flew past my face.

    Then a sheet of paper containing my carefully prepared opening statement landed in the lap of a complete stranger.

    He picked it up. He glanced at it which I did not like. Then he looked at me but to save face and because I wanted the paper back, I smiled. He handed it back. I reached for it, but the wind took it. And that was when I remembered why modern buses are sealed.

    Many major cities had not taken away open buses because the city had become boring. They had taken them away because someone, somewhere, had finally realized that human beings should not be trusted with loose paperwork at thirty kilometres an hour, amongst other sensible reasons.

    I spent the rest of the journey trying to retrieve and rearrange my proposal while simultaneously preventing my hair, scarf, handbag and remaining dignity from becoming airborne.

    When I finally arrived at my meeting, I looked as though I had travelled there inside a washing machine.

    My client greeted me at the door.

    “Did you have trouble finding us?”

    I looked at him. I looked at my hair, then at the papers sticking out of my handbag.

    Then I thought about the hill. The hip, the hind and the bus and the wind. And the magnificent stupidity of trying to recreate childhood with a fully adult body.

    “No,” I said. “I had a wonderful journey.” And I meant it.

    Because sometimes adulthood gives you one tiny opportunity to be eight years old again. You should take it. Even if your hip clicks and your hind files a formal complaint. Even if you have to sprint up a hill looking like a woman fleeing the consequences of her own decisions.

    And even if, by the time you reach the business meeting, your childhood has been thoroughly restored, along with your lower back pain.

    But I think the real lesson from that day is this: Nostalgia is a beautiful thing, until you try to chase it uphill in sensible shoes.

    Still, I consider the day a success. I made it onto the open bus. I made the meeting, the business proposal. And, most importantly, I made it through the entire adventure without having to explain to anyone why my hip and hind were clearly no longer working under the same management.

    Somewhere between the hill and the meeting, I may have lost my dignity, but I found my childhood.

    My body, however, would like to file an appeal.


    © Rohini 2009–2025.
    All text, prose, images, and artwork presented herein are the original intellectual property of the author. All rights reserved.
    No part of this content may be copied, reproduced, distributed, displayed, or used in any form without the prior written permission of the copyright holder.

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    Perhaps adulthood is simply learning to live with the childhood that never quite left


  • The Room I Carry With Me


    In response to Violet’s Literary Quotes Challenge “The Uncomfortable Truths”

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    History isn’t about dates and places and wars. It’s about the people who fill the spaces between them.” ― Jodi Picoult, The Storyteller.


    “History isn’t about dates and places and wars. It’s about the people who fill the spaces between them.”

    I used to think my life would be measured the way textbooks measure everything else – birthdays, graduations, addresses I’ve lived at, jobs I’ve held. A timeline. Neat little dots connected by neater little lines.

    But that isn’t how it happened. What actually holds my life together isn’t the dots. It’s what filled the space between them. And more often than not, that space was shaped like a farmhouse kitchen, a gravel driveway, and two people who never once made me feel like too much.

    The Haven

    Nanah and Gramps’ farm didn’t look like sanctuary from the road. Just a house, some fields, a line of trees that seemed to go on forever if you were eight years old and running into them.

    But the woods there did something no other place could do – they turned the volume down on the world. The rustle of leaves was a sound I could actually hold onto, unlike the fluorescent hum and clatter of everywhere else. The light came in soft and dappled instead of sharp and flat. Nothing in those woods asked anything of me. It just let me be there.

    I didn’t have the words for it then – sensory overload, overwhelm, the particular exhaustion of a brain working overtime just to filter a grocery store or a birthday party. I only knew that somewhere between the porch and the tree line, my shoulders would drop an inch I didn’t know they’d been carrying.

    Gramps never asked why I needed to walk the fence line alone before I could talk to anyone. Nanah never rushed me out of the quiet corner of the kitchen where I’d go still and small when everything got too loud. They just made room. That’s it. That’s the whole secret they knew that so many people never learn: love doesn’t always look like doing something. Sometimes it looks like making space and waiting without impatience.

    The Ordinary, Which Was Never Ordinary

    It’s strange what memory keeps. Not the big trips, not most of the birthdays. What I keep is Nanah’s hands moving through flour, unhurried, like time itself slowed down in that kitchen. Gramps’ boots by the door, always in the same spot, a small proof that some things could be counted on. The smell of the barn. The particular creak of the screen door that meant someone I loved was either arriving or letting me leave, and either way, I was safe.

    These are not the moments you’d put in a history book. No one records the third Tuesday in July when a grandmother let a overwhelmed child sit under the kitchen table with a bowl of green beans to snap, asking nothing of her except to be nearby.

    But that Tuesday is more real to me than most of the years I can name by number. That’s the thing about the people who fill the space between the milestones – they’re building something in all those unrecorded hours. Building the place you run to when the recorded ones fall apart.

    When I Faltered

    Because I did falter. Grown, and still I faltered – jobs that ended badly, rooms too bright and too loud, days where my own mind turned into the very kind of chaos those woods used to quiet.

    And even as an adult, when everything in me wanted to fold inward and disappear, some part of me still knew the way to that gravel driveway. Not always literally. Sometimes it was just the memory of it –  the trees, the porch light, Nanah’s voice steady over the phone, Gramps saying nothing much at all and somehow saying everything.

    That’s what I understand now that I didn’t understand as a child: the farm wasn’t the haven. “They” were. The land just happened to be where they stood. I could have run to them in a city apartment, a hospital waiting room, anywhere and it would have worked exactly the same, because the safety was never about acreage.

    It was about two people who decided, quietly and without ceremony, that I would always have somewhere to land.

    The Losses

    And then, the way it always goes, the space between the milestones started filling with a different kind of weather. Gramps’ hands slowing. Nanah’s voice growing thinner on the phone. The unbearable ordinariness of watching people who felt eternal become, unmistakably, mortal.

    I won’t pretend that part is anything but what it is – a wound that doesn’t fully close. You don’t get to keep your haven forever. That’s the cruelty tucked inside every real love story. The farm is still there, or some version of it. The woods still hush the world the same way. But the porch light means something different now.

    Grief, it turns out, is just love with nowhere left to land. And for a long time after, I didn’t know what to do with all of it – all that love still reaching for people who weren’t there to receive it.

    What Remains

    But here’s what I’ve come to believe, slowly, the way you come to believe most true things: they didn’t just give me a childhood. They gave me a “template”.

    For every loud room I’ve had to leave since, some part of me built a version of those woods inside my own mind – a place I can go without going anywhere, where nothing is asked of me and I am allowed to simply be overwhelmed without being wrong for it.

    They taught me, without ever saying it aloud, that safety is something you can build for other people. That you can be someone’s fence line, someone’s kitchen table, someone’s quiet corner. I try to be that now, for the people who run to me.

    History isn’t the dates. It never was. It’s Nanah’s flour-dusted hands and Gramps’ boots by the door. It’s a child under a table snapping green beans, and a grown adult still finding her way back to a porch light that isn’t there anymore except in the way it taught her to build her own.

    The wars and the years are just the scaffolding. The people – the ones who make the space between the milestones survivable, even beautiful – those are the whole of it.

    That’s the history that matters. That’s the only kind I’ve ever really lived.


    © Rohini 2009–2025.
    All text, prose, images, and artwork presented herein are the original intellectual property of the author. All rights reserved.
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    “Some people don’t just walk through your life. They build the ground you stand on.”


  • The Unseen Within the Seen


    In response to Sadje’s Whatdoyousee WDYS #353 for Aug 10, 2026

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    Have you ever wondered how often we mistake looking for seeing, and seeing for knowing? Perhaps every closed door and every closed eye carries a world that our certainty is too quick to overlook.

    There are two photographs before me.

    In the first, there is an old wooden door. It has survived years of weather, neglect and perhaps the occasional disagreement with gravity. Its planks are dark with age.

    Its paint or whatever dignity once passed for paint has long since surrendered. The wall around it is cracked and tired, with dampness gathering at its feet like an old secret that has finally seeped out.

    Yet, the door remains. Someone has reinforced it with wooden braces, creating triangles across its surface. Perhaps they were meant to strengthen it. Perhaps they were simply a quiet act of defiance, the building saying, “I may be falling apart, but I’m not finished yet.”

    The door is shut, and immediately, my mind begins misbehaving. What is behind it? An abandoned room? A courtyard? A family that once lived there? A grandmother who still remembers everyone who left? A child who once pressed her ear against this very wood and listened to the world on the other side? I don’t know. The photograph gives me a door. My imagination supplies a life.

    Then, I look at the second photograph. A woman is standing against a bright wall. Her eyes are closed. There is a smile on her face. And again, my mind begins writing fiction. She is happy, peaceful. She has just remembered something wonderful. Perhaps she is listening to music. Perhaps someone has said something kind. Perhaps she has finally forgiven someone.

    Perhaps she has simply closed her eyes because the photographer told her to. I don’t know. The photograph gives me a smile. My mind supplies the happiness.

    And suddenly I wonder if this is what we do all our lives. We see fragments and call them truths. We see someone’s silence and decide they are arrogant. Someone’s tears and decide they are weak. Someone’s laughter and decide they are happy. Someone’s success and decide they have an easy life. Someone’s withdrawal and decide they don’t care. We are astonishingly confident creatures for beings who are almost always looking through keyholes.

    Perhaps that is why the old door and the woman belong together. Both are closed. One hides a room. The other hides a world. And neither tells us what is actually happening on the other side.

    The door does not announce, I am abandoned. The woman does not announce, I am happy. Those are interpretations. We have added them. Which makes me wonder how much of reality we actually see – and how much of it we author.

    We like to believe that seeing is a passive act. It isn’t. Seeing is an act of participation. The eye receives an image, but the mind immediately begins decorating it with memory, prejudice, longing, fear and experience.

    A person who has lost someone may look at the door and see absence. An architect may see structure. A historian may see time. A romantic may see a forgotten love story. A pessimist may see decay. A hopeful person may see survival.

    The door hasn’t changed. The viewer has.

    And perhaps that is the uncomfortable brilliance of perception: two people can look at exactly the same thing and walk away having seen entirely different worlds.

    We do this with other human beings too. We spend years looking at people we love and still fail to see them completely. We think we know our parents, our children, our partners, our friends.

    Sometimes, we know their habits so well that we mistake familiarity for understanding. We know how they take their coffee, how they laugh, what irritates them, what they usually say. But somewhere behind all that is a locked room to which even those closest to them may not possess the key.

    And perhaps we are equally mysterious to ourselves. There are rooms inside us we have never entered. Old fears we have boarded up. Memories we have reinforced with explanations. Versions of ourselves we abandoned but never quite demolished. We become, in our own strange way, that old door – weathered, repaired, still standing.

    And sometimes, like the woman in the photograph, we close our eyes. Not because there is nothing to see. Perhaps because there is too much.

    When our eyes are closed, the outside world disappears for a moment, and another world becomes visible: memory, imagination, regret, desire, the face of someone we miss, the person we used to be, the person we might still become.

    Maybe that is what the challenge is really asking: What do you see?
    Not what is there.

    Because the answer may reveal considerably more about the observer than the observed.

    The door is old. The woman is smiling. The wall is crumbling. Her eyes are closed. These are the things the camera can tell us. Everything else is a story.

    And perhaps the deepest lesson is this…we spend our lives trying to open doors, read faces and understand other people, while carrying around entire locked rooms within ourselves.

    Maybe wisdom isn’t learning to see more. Maybe it is learning to recognise the difference between what we see and what we assume we have seen.

    The door remains closed. The woman’s eyes remain shut. And for once, perhaps we should resist the urge to open either. Perhaps we should simply stand before them and wonder.

    Because sometimes the most profound thing a photograph can show us is how little we actually know.

    And how much of what we call seeing is really looking at the world through ourselves.

    And when everything we see is filtered through the imperfect lens of our own existence, how can we ever know what the world looks like without us in it?


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